haiyerr. everything is like so screwed up nowadays. im mood swinging to extream ends so often and get pissed off very easily. bet it's those hormones. stupid hormones.

oh well. life is not a bed of roses afterall. i've broke down like 8 times in the past week. and no one knows about it. bleh. i guess it's all due to the many shits that been coming along the way. it's just out of a sudden, everything cant work out. and it turns out so failure. so screwed. sometimes, i just feel like i cant do things right. and it's so often, that when you get one thing, you wont be able to get the other. and if suddenly relationships blossom here, at the other side, something will just shatter and break me apart. so my aunt's leaving in 10 days. i have no date before going for rese's concert this friday. i feel sort of abandoned in g2. im losing the passion i have for enterprise each day, i guess im just too tired for it after a whole long day. i haven't passed a single test for both emath and amath since the start of the year. common test's in 10 days. i realise i have to many things unsettled. i have social committements to attend to. i have no date this wednesday. damn.

when i wanna organise something, it always turns out screwed. some people just cant make it for one reason or another. how to bond like that. fine i know i have to try and be more understanding. but i've planned so hard for it. and now you just say, oh sorry. i ____ ____ ___ ______. damn. this is a re-scheduling can. 2 time alrdy. im getting so sick of it. actually this is like additional. have or dont have also doesn't really matter. what for man pearlyn. what for. im just slogging the shit out of me and in the end getting rejected. fine, lower my self-esteem for all i care. freak. and the attitude that people give in enterprise makes me wanna explode and just walk out. please. okay fine if it's non-comm members, at least the comm can have a meeting, sit down and discuss or smth. but now, it's comm members. not 1. i can name you like 4 who are rolling eyes each time things are being said, instructions are being given. i think i have decided not to care so much. it's not my job anyway. -roll eyes- why am i bothering if we have internal disunity. gahh. im losing hope. really. okay so fine, we haven really tried a new approach in changing the attitudes. and i seriously think scoldings dont work. but once again, heck. this is not my problem. so im so sick of it until im giving the heck care attitude. just gonna like attend meetings and stuff. for better or for worse, it's all up to you.

one word to describe what im feeling now. sad. sad. sad. it's such a screwed up life. and mainly it's due to the thing that's gonna happen on the 13th of august. thanks man. weekends wont be that colourful anymore. it's so gonna be work work work. and im just gonna get more pissed with my mum or smth. just cant seem to get along. haha whatever. i better work to make more relationships more successful. not gonna have a screwd up life any longer i guess.

okay so i promise i'll like update as often as possible. hopefully everyday. paperin.livejournal.com. my posts of my blogging in sch. since they didnt block that. :D cant wait for miricles to happen. i konw i shouldnt worry too much. at least im not going. but still, 1 whole smacking yr, 56++ weekends without __________. okay fine i should stop typing. gonna cry soon.

ta-da. thanks to those who dont care. you make my life 10 times worse. thanks for acting like you cared. and im back to worrying bout the many things ahead. so not gonna give a damn any longer. YUEXI and the MISSING TABLET part 2

yups. so part 2 continues. after like a whooping 1 week break. haha. yuexi found her tablet. fullstop. tada! thanks to all who read and searched for it. (: im sure pokpok will be appreciative. hurhur.

so yeah. the china people came. haha. and left. came on like monday and left on sunday. gosh. went to school like 7 days last week. 0.o from monday to sunday. i better get a life man. all thanks to the china people. my mum spent like dunno how much buying gifts for her. haha. mine is called junxi. hurhur sounds like pokpok huh. yup. so junxi is super humongous. taller than me. and yup she slept on the bed. i slept on the floor. after sch brought her home kinddaf thing. went out on sat with eddy yuexi and jingyi. realised that they cant walk for more than 2h?! haha. walk orchard road not even like 1/8th yet. leg pain alrdy. -.- please. and OMG. WE LOST THEM AT HEEREN DAMMIT. @.@

haha yea. so they leg pain want to sit down. we halfway up the escalator den tell us. so fine. sit there. we bring the other 3 to get cds at hmv 1st den we come and pick you 4 lazy bums up. HAHA. and guess what? GOSH. they anyhow walk and DISAPPEARED. me and fiona paniced like nobody's business. run up run down the whole shopping center can! even to the more teen part. walk around like 5 times! and guess what. found them OUTSIDE. wth. if i ever go to a foreign country i would NEVER EVER like anyhow walk. and fiona was being an ass. so funny lah! she was scolding vulgarities and showing signs throughout the whole search. HAHA. :D i <3 fiona. and not to say, if i go to foreign country, no matter how tired i am i will follow can! i wont like sit there and wait for people to kidnap me. OMG. i wish some people had more common sense.

so jingyi's pig got a 2 storey house with garden. and my one got a flat with 2 bedroom and no kitchen. how nice. gosh. im so materialistic. :D so yup. im really slack now. gosh. i miss the mama store days. where i stay back and stuff. now each afternoon's so boring. :( and this friday i might have to wait in sch till 5+ since history lect ends at like 3+ and i cant be bothered to go home den go for session again. gosh. such a loser.





life's screwed. haha i feel so accomplised today.
yesterday wrote out a list of like 37 things i gotta do today. and guess what? HAHA. im extreamly happy to say that... i've only left with 13 things to do! haha. out of which only 2 are important. so yeah. so i've done 24 things on my list today. and that's like WOW. greatest accomplishment ever! tada!

yupps. so today was kinddaf pissed at someone. cause this someone apparently didnt come to sch. and made me stressed like shit. cause i got so many things to ask! but glad to say, when me, and the two dearest pokpoks yuexi and eddy were at the foyer multi-tasking (we were pulling stockings while welcoming the hangzhou kids) i saw that someone come to sch. was so happy that i can just scream can. and ta-da! 14 items were off my list. yes. just like that. haha :D

so next, council invest. was supposed to usher the queenstown sec ppl. omg they are fantastic! queenie (that girl from queens) actually knows heidy k. i was like damn shocked. 0.o cause we couldnt really find a topic to talk about and it was all thanks to heidy that we started laughing bout her. haha. thanks heidy! so invest finally started at like 12.45 sharp. yes sharp i mean it. dammit. this yr's invest was quite rush. haha you can sense the rushness can. all thanks to the o'lvls. tsk. tables and chairs. tsk. so waste time. and this cut short the invest which totally spoilt the whole thing. poot lah. so we walked in, pin badges, gave cert to my dearest tasneeem! (: and sec2s had new ties. omg i was so freakin jealous cause my tie was like so dirty and they had new ones! and i really really wanted to go and get one. hahaha. (:

so blahblah. after invest went mad a BIT. had reception, took loads of photos. but i doubt anyone's gonna send any to me. since i didnt even get the nacli video and photos and stuff. so yeah. i can just like dream on bout having those photos. tsk. it's not surprising that council really didnt cheer me up. was damn pissed for the whole day alrdy please. so had mock test and blah and i gotta pon! yay! (: being chiense rep is kinddaf shitty. haha. gotta change back to sch u, den go to class to collect the mock test papers which i didnt do yet, and dump them into the teacher's pidgeon hole. bleh.

so nxt, went to the store to settle account. totally enjoyed it! haha i <3 the store i dunno why. always seem to have a urge to pack it, but today i just like slacked at the table and rotted. and did accounts of course. i totally <333 enterprise to bits and pieces.


so now. let me tell you a story. it's called..

YUEXI and the MISSING TABLET.

once upon a time, in a land far far away, there lived a girl called yuexi pokpok. it was on that very fateful day that pokpok lost her tablet. yes. on the day of the council invest. yuexi was with eddy and pearlyn at the foyer waiting for the hangzhou kids while multi-tasking. and guess what? yuexi apparently took her bag and tablet with her to the council room. waiteng saw. pearlyn didnt see any tablet in the foyer. BUT. the tablet wasnt in the council room! it wasnt at the foyer either! WHO TOOK THE TABLET?! 0.o pokpok started freaking out at around 6.30 when she was about to go home. she called pearlyn and asked pearlyn a gazillion times if she saw the tablet. pearlyn said no the tablet wasnt at the table when pearlyn left. so obviously, yuexi took it with her. gosh. WHERE COULD IT BE? all thanks to pearlyn's uberly genius idea, pokpok decided to msg mt, to ask ms chan or mr tan if they took the tablet. cause previous cases of missing tablets were all taken by teachers. and everyone felt cheated. so pokpok typed a very very UNRELAXED msg to mt. who called her back and told her to relax and stuff. and good news is, mr tan saw a tablet in the general office! woohoo. pokpok hopes its hers. pearlyn hopes it's yuexi's. cause how many people actually loses their tablet each day!? maybe i should do a survey. hmm. so pokpok finally felt relieved. i guess. BUT. she will get demerited. and yuexi thinks that sucks. pearlyn thinks that sucks too. but oh well. at least it's better than getting a new tablet in case pokpok's warrenty expires. and that's it. end of story. pearlyn hope yuexi will get her tablet back tmr. if the one at the general office is not pokpok's... den part two of YUEXI AND THE MISSING TABLET will appear very very soon. so STAY TUNED! :D excel fest today was rocking good. haha. okay fine it was sorta boring. fooled around with eyeshadows and stuff. and we got a lift there after council invest frm ms goh together with mr tan. omg. me and yuexi totally died on the car can! i was like so stunned. wth is the vp doing with us on the car? but oh well, they didnt talk to us and we didnt talk to them. so fine lah. not so bad. haha. and ms tan msged me to be careful with what im saying. phew i didnt say anything. (:

seriously. im damn pissed with council. it has never failed to annoy me each time we meet. haha of couse there are some nice people in council like hani, felly welly, yuyumon and safa and blah. but yeah. i have loads of critisism for it. but yup. im not gonna say it here. not so stupid in case someone wants to sue me for this pathatic paragraph. woooooo. so invest sucks. exco well nearly half were like -.- by many. and we just tried to shut up. so we walked in walked out like so many times can! i totally flipped. and halfway through my hands got itchy. my hands keep getting itchy today. so yeah. half way thru i was uberly hyper. cause the clock was ticking fast and i couldnt wait for the invest rehersal to end! was totally shitty poot lah. and i got a big fat urge to jump but i cant. hahahahaha. so i tried to control. and i nearly suffocated. please. i so totally wanted to die alrdy can. but yea. council = poot. so fine. get me out.


haha after that mt msged for us to meet like 1 and a 1/2 hour earlier cause my tablet was needed. -.- yx was taking a freakin long time. haha i dont see any point in prep talks. esp since the real invest is like 3 days away. prep now also no use. i guess it's just a plain waste of time. and im sorry if i happen to be in exco, i'd never ever be able to put council 1st, enterprise 2nd. sorry but council just seem to be the worst thing that had ever happened to me. so we got a lift there blah blah. and i got a tour of the staff room! haha. (: mt's table was freakin cool! so many stuff toys. like wth. more like pri sch kid's table can! i saw the smurf toy i gave. :D and i was happy from that point on.

on the way to excel fest, i was like so so so excited. hahaha. amanda arrived earlier tooo! and we had so much fun playing with eyeshadows. and i suck please. dont even have double eyelid. yuexi was the most most most hilarious. she has 4 eyelids on her left eye. and 3 on her right. and puffy eyebags! HAHAH. in the end we all looked like zombies. -.- haha but i had loads of fun! and mrs lee was being kind. she treated us to ice cream! haha i <3 my crayon ice cream. and never ever get redbean ice cream. haha. it melts uber fast. and uh-uh. mt got some on her shirt! neh-neh! =P so after ice cream we just like started introducing our products and stuff. haha i kinddaf repeated the sentence "these are done by our students" like 30 over times. kinddaf died.

so we had cotton candy, talk talk laugh laugh and tried to entertain myself. oh boy. enterprise cheers me up (: and packing up was damn hilarious. the easel simply hates me. the rubber thing on the easel hates me. keep dropping out can! and mt doesnt wanna do anything just keep laughing at me. i was like made a fool for a minute. hahaha dammit. but oh well. finally the easel could be folded. so not so bad. hahaha. (: and we cabed back to sch. had 3 cabs. i had the job of like going outside to flag the cabs in. like wth. -.- but oh well. i managed to get all 3 cabs in! yay! (: and me, amanda and jiali had a cab together. hahahaha. (: poor yx. she was with dk alone in the cab! if it's me, i think i'll totally flip. and start smsing people and freak out. but oh well. so packing up was great. i <3 packing up. hahaha. fine you must think that im nuts. but it's so accomplishing to set up the stall and pack up again! haha like while tearing those posters down you will be thinking like.. wow. i put all these up 2 days ago! and it's really awesome. HAH. (:


so the hangzhou people are coming in 2 days times. im frekain out cause i dunno what to give. on the train home and a lill talk with _____. :D realised that she's nice afterall. so fine. it's HOT. cold. HOT. cold. and now i guess it's back to HOT again. omg. when will this freakin obsession go away. i thought i lost it. but after this 1 wk, i guess i know her more. but now i just hope that it'll turn out to be a friend friend relationship. more openess and stuff. and not just like hide in my shell kinddaf thing. i dont want the past to repeat itself. never ever. may be just be friends forever and ever. (: so sorry everyone! haha sorry for not blogging for like whoa. a MONTH. @.@ fine. oh well many stuff happened and yup. school started again. ah poot. so irritated. so yup latest updates! went to spotlight today to get 3m of freakin VELCRO. ah dammit. didnt even know that today spotlight had like 20% off storewide. and the velcro that i wanted wasnt long enough! was like 1/2m. freakin shit. so yea. went ot queue at the cutting station for like 3 times to only realise that all the 3 boxes that i wanted wasnt long enough. ahh dammit. so finally after re-queuing again and again and again, i got my 3m of UN-STICKY velcro. ahhh. so now gotta go and stick on some double sided tape. wonder if can even stick on lah! screwed up totally. so yes after that went to the cashier. queued for like 53min. -.- pure waste of time.

so fine. lesson learnt: never ever go to spotlight when it's having sale. those people with loads of clothes will just drive you nuts. hahah. :D

oh well, realised that as long as some stuff are not my job i really shouldnt go care bout it. and now my life is like carefree! hah. cause im kinddaf heck care mode alrdy. finally got my piorities right. okay or at least i think i got them right. enterprise and council should never be the first. it wasnt anyway. but yea now i learnt to put it down down down. and studies are like higher up above on my list! yups.


so the shanghai thing. uberly screwed. at first is go. den dont go. den now is go again!? freak. if it's a go, i'll be giving gala dinner a miss, the hangzhou trip a miss, the thimun thingy. and all the camps like enterprise and rciy. and im gonna miss going to outward bound sabah and lumut with the two felly wellys! hahaha. <3 their new hairstyle.


high school musical rock my socks. <33 did the online personality test and i was tested to be most like sharpay. -.- such a bitchy ass. hahaha okay fine maybe i am afterall. really cant get adapted to the new teacher's teaching. and all are kinddaf sucky. now my interest is kinddaf gone? and haha i used to have this motivation by mr loh to motivate myself to do amaths for 1/2h each day. but that never happened of course. i only had that motivation but didnt really do. haha. and now? i guess that is gone.

woohoo. happy to say, my enterprise passion is half back. i can sense it! wow. haha. but still nowadays some people are acting really weird and fine. i guess it's just me. like those i used to be really close to are kinddaf drifting apart cause of some new implementations and stuff. hope stuff will get back to normal soon.


and yes have i ever mentioned that i dont like most of the new exco? but sigh i shall not bitch on this blog in case i get some law suit against me as what ms pham read during the journal thing today. hahahah. my teacher's gonna sue me! wth. damn hilarious but should be treated seriously i guess. from now on my blog shall not bitch. how boring can that be. but hani juuuliani and felly wellys and jocey wocey and lau and safa and yuexi and eddy and amanda and many many more! you are always welcomed to hear me rant. HAHAHA. and guess what. fact of the day. i didnt know teachers bitch too. 0.o

what an interesting world.

oh did i mention that stephy is such a sweet lill fren! haha thanks samta for everything! for all the late night talking till i nearly fall asleep, for all the dinners and fun times tapping fr's internet. HOHO. <- look! haha. thanks soooo much. <33 LOADS. one day lill miss charmy will get her mr charming. one day. (: rock on with your charm! even the lido guy loves it. HAH. dont stress too much k. who cares if your form is such an ass. a yr is gonna be over soon! just dont think too much and have fun yea! and i'll continue to be your entertainer when you're having math tuition! :D rock on babe!



HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL. <3

Troy: we're soaring', flying there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach
garbriella: if we're trying so we're breaking free
troy: you know the world can see us in a way that's different that who we are
gabriella: creating space between us til we're separate hearts

both: but your faith, it gives me strength strenth to believe

troy: we're breaking free
gabriella we're soaring
troy: flyin'

both: there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach

troy: if we're tryin'
both: yeah we're breaking free
troy: oh we're breaking free
gabriella: ohhhh
troy: can you feel it building like a wave the ocean just can't control
gabriella: connected by a feeling ohhh, in our very souls

both: rising 'til it lifts us up so everyone can see

troy: we're breaking free
gabriella: we're soaring
troy: flying

both: there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach
troy: if we're tryin'

both: yeah we're breakng free
troy: oh we're breaking free

gabriella: ohhh, runnin'
troy: climbin' to get to that place

both: to be all that we can be
troy: now's the time

both: to be all that we can be
troy: now's the time
both: so we're breaking free

troy: we're breaking free
gabriella: ohhh, yeah
troy: more than hope more than faith
gabriella: this is the truth this is the fate and together,
both: we see it comin'

troy: more than you more than me
gabriella: not a want, but a need
both: both of us breakin' free